Waiting is an activity I do frequently even though it makes me feel bad about myself. I do it most often when I am procrastinating or depressed. Today, I’m procrastinating. Continue reading Waiting
This current pilgrimage started with an existential crisis of meaning. Why was I alive? What was my purpose in being? Continue reading Never Too Late ….
Thoughts have started coming to me out of nowhere that it’s too much effort to continue living. Continue reading Still Struggling
I have many things I could be doing — folded laundry to put away, dishes to do, a bedroom to clean. I could be working on PowerPoints for a class I will teach in the fall. But I don’t want to be sitting here doing nothing either. I am feeling bereft, lacking something I can’t quite put my finger on. Continue reading Clicking Away: Sign of Depression
My gastric bypass surgery is scheduled for July 11. Between now and then I need to lose at least 12 pounds or risk delaying surgery. I started this process in October last year. It’s been too long process to take the risk. Today, I start my weight loss journey. Just for the record, I’m 5’5″ and … Continue reading Weight Loss: Prep for Surgery
Ok … so I’m not hypomanic anymore. While the possibility of going over the edge into full-fledged mania is always a bit scary, I love the hypomanic high. I can focus and get so much accomplished (or at least started until the next episode). I really do love it (which means I’m reluctant to take … Continue reading Hypomania: Quick Update
Here I am hypomanic again — mixed episode — so also battling moments of depression. Seems like I only blog when I’m hypomanic. Hmmmm …. wonder if it’s a cause or an effect. Thoughts? Continue reading Quick Update